BUT ENOUGH OF THAT, I DONT NEED TO BE AFRAID!
Because over the last few months I have been hurt, I have seen how I have hurt others I care about and I have CHOSEN to learn from the BOMB that has gone off in my life instead of lay down and go off with it!
I feel so much! I feel pain, an ache deep inside me some days I can be distracted but other days the aching it grows and swells and the memories and questions and anger fester and TRY to take over
BUT
the joy of what I have learned is that I dont have to fight off this hurt all by myself!
I have known for so long that Jesus Christ, my loving Brother, is there to help carry my burden! I have relied on his help before, but facing this catastrophe challenged me to either cling to his help or suffer alone!
During my sleepless nights and hours of consuming sadness HE showed me how to not only survive but flourish!
I have NEVER understood the people who would get up on fast sunday and and say they were THANKFUL for their trials! BUT I understand it now! HEavenly Father allows us to experience these life changing storms so that we can learn to be better, we can gain the strength to change ourselves and become the person HE knows we can be! We can, if we choose, grow closer to Him then we could if we had not experienced that deep sadness!
I have learned NO ONE and I mean NO ONE can make me happy! I have the power to effect my day, my attitude and to DO the things that make me happy! The choices others make dont decide my happiness! I dont have to REACT to the others around me I act in a way that will make me happy and that way it doesnt matter what the people around me choose to do!
I have simplified my life and everyday if I all I do is read a book or my scriptures, pray and listen to hymns when the waves of doubt and sadness come and play with my kids; I WILL BE HAPPY!
I have learned to be grateful and positive about the small things in my life I can influence! To look for the delightful in the everyday!
I have learned that it is FAMILY, even with all their flaws and crazy quirks, that is TRULEY there for you when the storm hits! THEY LOVE ME and truley have my happiness as thier priority!
Its because of these things that I can say I am grateful for this trial. I am grateful to be growing and changing and unbelievably grateful to have My Savior as a companion to walk this road with me!
5 comments:
hey, have no idea what's been going on, but I hope you know we think of you guys all the time. I've been wondering where you have been...
hugs from me!!!
You're an amazing, strong, beautiful woman, Cameo. It is clear that you have what it takes to turn challenges into strengthening learning experiences. You're so inspiring. Keep it up, my Friend, and call anytime. Love you!
Hey, so sorry to hear that life has been difficult for you! :( You have always been an example to me and I know what a strong woman you are. Hang in there! Love ya!
Oh, sweet Cameo. I have been wondering about you a lot and have missed you! I'm so sorry to hear that you have been experiencing the refiners fire. It's never an easy thing to endure - but our faith surely makes it easier. You are amazing. I have always thought so. You're strength and testimony have strengthened me. Thank you dear friend, and hang in there.
Dearest Cameo,
We love you so much and are so incredibly proud of the woman you are becoming. Hang tightly onto the principles of the gospel and your faith in His plan, and things will always work out. Use the gospel as a compass to check and reassess your direction. Remember, Pres. Hinckley said that a positive attitude was a gift of God and I can testify that that is true! So stay positive and hold on tight! Please know that we will always be here for you and that we love you tremendously!
Love,
Mom
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