My Blessing in Nursery

I had a challenging but ultimately rewarding couple of Sundays! Cooper has been REALLY REALLY REALLY struggling going to Nursery! For the last 7 Sundays Cooper would start hysterically crying as we approached the nursery door! Our nursery leaders DON'T want us to leave Cooper if he is crying so I have been in class with him! Some Sundays with Graham too, because BJ has had to work or been teaching in Young Men! It has been challenging!

Last week BJ had to work so I took Graham and Cooper to nursery. It was a rough day for Cooper but as they went for snack time and the lesson I was able to sneak out! I WAS THRILLED! I went and sat down in Relief Society, just as I relaxed into the chair Graham started crying, he was hungry! I got up walked out the door and stood in the hall way for a second! The thought came to me, WHY AM I HERE? I haven't been to either class in weeks, Sacrament is spent trying to keep the kids quiet! I KNOW I couldn't tell you what was talked about. I haven't had one second since I got here to even think about The Savior! WHY AM I HERE? I went and sat down in the mothers lounge and fed Graham, still sad! He fell asleep a few times but as I stopped nursing he would cry! Finally I covered him up with his blanket, still nursing and went in and sat down in Relief Society! I looked up at the clock and there was less then 10 minutes left! My heart sank!! That night as I laid down I said a silent prayer about my frustration! I knew the right answer, keep going even if you sit in nursery and read books and negotiate with the kids during Sacrament! Keep going Heavenly Father will bless you, 10 minutes of class is enough to feel the spirit and learn a little! KEEP GOING!

Then this Sunday my own personal miracle! Spencer took Cooper to class, played a few minutes and left! COOPER WAS PERFECT! never cried never even noticed Spencer left! It seems so small and SO trivial but to me it was a HUGE blessing, something I COULDN'T have done on my own! I know Heavenly Father understands my simplest frustrations and is waiting to help if I will simply continue doing what is right and show Him I believe in Him and His Gospel!

So THANK YOU for listening to me and for ONCE AGAIN showing me that if I out forth the effort and Come Unto Thee you will always be there for me! This is my continuing testimony!