Growing Up

Seems like we have been here in Logan forever. When I think about life before we moved here it seems like years and years ago. I think I am really starting to find my place here.

Since moving so much has changed. So much more then just our address and the people we knew before.

I feel like I have grown up in a lot of ways. And maybe its just that I am finally in a place where I can look at myself and say... "Gosh why do I do that? I think I should change that a little so I can be happier!"

Or something kinda like that anyway!

My babies are bigger and bigger every day! They are starting to understand things and think for themselves! It means that I need to understand each of them, their needs their personalities and how they feel loved and important!

My relationship with them needs to grow and evolve! Its kind of tricky but I WANT to be the kind of mom that KNOWS her child. Not just barks orders and expects obedience and compliance!

I feel like Heavenly Father KNOWS me and I want to KNOW and understand Spencer, Cooper and Grahamy individually!

I am a wife to a wonderful man! But for a long time now I dont think I really understood what being a wife really meant.

I am learning to be a helpmate to my sweet man! To give more then I expect back! To be grateful to be on this journey with him. I am learning its not just about what he does for me that makes me happy but what we are for each other that make Both of us feel fulfilled and in love!

He has needed me this last year. Needed me to be strong and supportive while he pushes through this intense grad program! And it feels SO good to be strong and take care of lots of things on my own. It feels good to rely on myself and show myself I CAN do so many things!

And it feels amazing to have my hottie hubby come home and love and cuddle me.

I have had some dissapointments in the last year. I have felt so sad and low. I have felt betrayed and unimportant. But from that place I have grown and thrived! I am so proud of myself for not falling apart under pressure. I am grateful that I can look back and know that I was true to who I want to be.

I know that my Savior helped me through that time, I know He is happy with the efforts I make each day and that He will help me along my path!

Earlier today BJ was teasing me and in jest asked me what my Bliss was? I laughed back and said a constant vacation in Hawaii where all we had to do was play and play.

Well I've been thinking and MY TRUE BLISS looks a lot like this....

Life is Changing

It seems like latley our lives are about adapting to all the new bends in the road. All the pictures today are from Spencer Preschool Graduation and his very first field trip and bus ride in Kindergarten.

I have loved watching the boys these last few months as they each creep into new stages of thier childhood. Spencer is doing homework everyday! He loves math, he is very good with his patterns. And even though he doesnt love it he is SO good at his letters and sight words! I cant believe that all of a sudden he is no longer a toddler but a big kid on his way to reading! I am so proud of him!!

Cooper is getting better and better at expressing himself. I love to hear him work out sounds and words and so he can communicate so much clearer. He is my little "feeler" he is so tender hearted. So much like his mom he doesnt just hear things he FEELS them! Even though he is getting so much more independent I cherish the moments when he comes up and wants to cuddle and give me kisses!

And my Baby Grahamy! Gosh I just cant believe he is almost 2! He has so much personality. He is the smallest little 2 year old but he knows how to make himself known! :) He is still very sweet and cuddly he loves to be held and read to. But he has developed the case of the "mines" even before his 2nd Birthday! And boy, if he wants it he will LET YOU KNOW!

All these little developments and changes are so exciting and rewarding and a little scary. I know for me so many things are changing. Life never ends up like you dream of as a 15 year old! (which in my case is MOSTLY A HUGE BLESSING:)

But when things change and I realize I have NO control over it, it means I am faced with a decision.

Option A: Cry, Cry a lot and refuse to accept whats coming.

But shoot that option doesnt get me anywhere but with a chapped nose, puffy eyes and an even more confused heart and family.

So Option B: Roll with it. Find out how to make this new path fulfill a new dream. Its so easy to get off of Heavenly Fathers path. And so my number one concern with all these changes is making sure that:

I AM STILL on the path that leads to Heavenly Father and his ever so fulfilling tree of life!

I know I cant be stubborn, life isn't always Black and White! But there is a BEST way a BETTER path and I want to make sure I dont let the feelings of disappointment for those lost dreams get in the way of me making the best choice.

I feel like this path is not as easy to find as life gets more and more complicated but I guess being able to discern and put my faith in the Lord is what I NEED to learn right now!

I truly believe Heavenly Father is out there watching over me and wants to HELP me make the best choice for each day! I know that I can make it through all of these changes with a smile and a prayer!

And darn-it that is so easy to type but so much harder to do!

So here I come path, here I come changes

LETS DO THIS

Cause I am not alone and I am looking forward to it!

All Rain NO Mud

I have been afraid of this... afraid of how to sum up the feelings and experiences I have been going through over the last few months! Afraid of how to express it on this blog I have grown to love!

BUT ENOUGH OF THAT, I DONT NEED TO BE AFRAID!
Because over the last few months I have been hurt, I have seen how I have hurt others I care about and I have CHOSEN to learn from the BOMB that has gone off in my life instead of lay down and go off with it!

I feel so much! I feel pain, an ache deep inside me some days I can be distracted but other days the aching it grows and swells and the memories and questions and anger fester and TRY to take over
BUT
the joy of what I have learned is that I dont have to fight off this hurt all by myself!

I have known for so long that Jesus Christ, my loving Brother, is there to help carry my burden! I have relied on his help before, but facing this catastrophe challenged me to either cling to his help or suffer alone!

During my sleepless nights and hours of consuming sadness HE showed me how to not only survive but flourish!

I have NEVER understood the people who would get up on fast sunday and and say they were THANKFUL for their trials! BUT I understand it now! HEavenly Father allows us to experience these life changing storms so that we can learn to be better, we can gain the strength to change ourselves and become the person HE knows we can be! We can, if we choose, grow closer to Him then we could if we had not experienced that deep sadness!

I have learned NO ONE and I mean NO ONE can make me happy! I have the power to effect my day, my attitude and to DO the things that make me happy! The choices others make dont decide my happiness! I dont have to REACT to the others around me I act in a way that will make me happy and that way it doesnt matter what the people around me choose to do!

I have simplified my life and everyday if I all I do is read a book or my scriptures, pray and listen to hymns when the waves of doubt and sadness come and play with my kids; I WILL BE HAPPY!

I have learned to be grateful and positive about the small things in my life I can influence! To look for the delightful in the everyday!

I have learned that it is FAMILY, even with all their flaws and crazy quirks, that is TRULEY there for you when the storm hits! THEY LOVE ME and truley have my happiness as thier priority!

Its because of these things that I can say I am grateful for this trial. I am grateful to be growing and changing and unbelievably grateful to have My Savior as a companion to walk this road with me!

My Loves

As Valentines Day gets closer and closer it helps me think about who I love and how lucky I am to have people who love me back!I love my family for the way that we are growing up together and for the way they believe in BJ and I!
I love BJ's family! It has been a fun ride getting to know and love another family and becoming part of their family has made me a better person!
Pictures from our bowling date night! We played the skittle game and the boys beat us and then the next match we walked away the WINNERS!!! ooooooo
I love the GREAT friends I have in my life! They help me laugh when I feel like breaking down, they help me appreciate my blessing and remember who sent them! I know they are part of my life for a reason!
I love my 3 little boys! They show me that love can be silly AND crazy AND cuddly! But most of all they show me that love is unconditional! They see me when I am trying my hardest and when I have dropped the ball and need to try again.... and they STILL LOVE ME!
Most of all I love my MAN! He has been beside me for almost 8 years! He inspires me to the best me I can! He laughs with me, supports me in whatever hobby I am immersed in, he ALWAYS puts me and our family first! I have never met someone more understanding and compassionate he sets such a good example for me! Not to mention he is a major STUD!I think its kinda special that a simple call from him in the middle of the day or smile when I have accomplished something can light me up and get my heart racing! It makes me feel all giddy and girly... like I did when we were dating!

This year we are making a special effort to keep the giddy feeling alive! I made us a special "Love is" mail box! Each week we are going to write each other a little love note about why we love each other that week! I am SO SO SO excited! I really think this is going to help us look for the best in each other and I know I am filled with anticipation to see what my love letter will say each week!

So to all of you out there who care about me... THANK YOU! I am thinking about you! HUGS and KISSES ! I SURE LOVE YOU!

A Stub Your Toe Kind of Day

This last week has been a little tipsy! I don't know how to describe it other then....
that crazy frustration and pain you feel when you really REALLY stub your toe...
you aren't mad, or sad or upset you are just CRAZZY UUUaagghhhh!
Graham and BJ after BJ told him NO while he was dropping rice all over... he was SO sad and need a love! He had some crocodile tears... it was sad!

Well this week has been a mix of stub your toe then laugh and then stub your toe again... until all you can do is curl up and laugh or cry!

One of the greatest women I wish I knew said...
"The only way to get through this life is to laugh your way through it. You either have to laugh or cry. I prefer to laugh. Crying gives me a headache."
Thanks Sister Hinckley
Amber and I have SO much fun together just goofing off! We were making these Chocolate Dipped Oreo's and just decided to get silly! I LOVED IT!

SO to all you Stub your toe kind of moments......
I give you a big huge fall on the floor giggle!

One of my biggest faults is that I jump to conclusions and see the absolute worst in situations when I am sad or offended! SO I am working so hard to look for the absolute best or silly in those situations! I might have to do a little "fake it till you make it" but LAUGHING is so much better for the spirit! And who wants to be a Sour Sally? I DON'T!
Amber and I decided to dance it out! IT WAS A BLAST!

A few moments that have got my heart racing and my mind working this week...

I got a calling! !! YIPPIE!
What could it be.....
I know your dying to know.....
WELL....
Its NOT NURSERY! whew....
I am team teaching the
10-11-12 year olds in the Valiants class!

I am SO excited! I am teaching this coming week! I have been reading and studying the scriptures for this lesson and I am stoked!

I have also been baking and dreaming up all the yummy things I can make with my mixer! I am going to take a few pics tomorrow!

Another little something is that dinner tonight was WONDERFUL! Over and Sister Stuff they have weekly menus! Everything I've made of theirs has been SPECTACULAR you have to try this Orange Chicken! OOOOOoooooo we all loved it!

And to counter act all of that I have been going to Work Out Group.. it hurts SO good! Today as I was walking to the car my legs were so tired and sore I couldn't walk straight! But if feels so good to be getting out and exercising!

I am working on a "Live List!" One of my favorite blogs is The Polished Pickle and she challenged everyone to make a list of all the things they want to do! SO I am going to get mine together! It gets me all bubbling inside!

Whew... I am excited..
Try and catch me now Stub My Toe Moments!

I DARE YOU!


What do you do when all the little things make you want to AAAaaagggghhhhh?

A Good Day

Friday was my first day back to work since before Graham was born! I was unsure and unesasy about how I would do after so long but I am HAPPY to report it was GREAT! Cristy teased me about jumping back into it, that you never forget cause its like riding a bike! I STILL dont know if its that easy but I sincerely enjoyed being creative and getting back into what I LOVE!
the arrangements I worked on..This is what the cooler looked like at the end of the day...
B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L right?

Its easy to forget the simple little things!
I LOVED:
how your fingers get a soft tint of green after arranging for a while AND
creating a "vision" for the order and price you have before you AND
the RUSH you feel as you go into the cooler and "shop" around for what will make THIS arrangement extra special!
AND
how I love adding lots of dimension to my arrangements... its kind of like a game, how much texture and space can I create in this AND
the contentment I feel when I get to spend the day creating, expressing and pushing myself!
Other arrangments for the Bloomers booth at the Bridal fair

THANKS to all the Bloomers girls, I had a great time, I am anxiously awaiting my next chance to come back!

I have to share these pics... When we woke up Friday morning the snow had DUMPED in Cedar and so 3 of my helpful sweet boys went out to scoop the driveway for mom! They were having WAY too much fun so I caught it on the camera........Thanks boys for helping get me ready for my big day! I sure looked forward to coming home to you!

ahhh.... lovely

For Christmas my big gift was a Kitchenaid mixer! I have wanted one for SO long and was shocked and thrilled when I ripped the wrapping paper off to see it! I picked a silver color and am in LOVE with it! Today I made some cookies and really recognized how much easier it is then a hand mixer! NO MORE standing around beating... I am a multi tasker now! Except when I get caught up in how amazing it is and just sit and WATCH it go!

THANK YOU MOM AND DAD I LOVE MY MIXER!

I have a some other news that I am batting around in my head! Tomorrow I go back to work... just for the day.... I dont know how I feel! Its been SO SO long since I've gone to work!

I am excited to see the girls at the Flower Shop

I am excited to play around with some flowers, the Bridal Fair is this weekend and that means we get to be CREATIVE!

I am excited to get away.. NO KIDS.. NO FIGHTING... NO WHINING

And Yet.....

I feel a little unsure! I dont know what I am unsure about! I know once I get there I will be on cloud 9 but until then I feel a little nervous and overwhelmed! I know this will help me to get out and use some of my talents with out little hands and needs but I am unsure if I were to go back to work a few times a month if I could balance everything? I am sure I am over-thinking it.... Ill be sure to take some pictures of my day tomorrow to share and reflect after!!!!

HAPPY

My new favorite song is Happy by Leona Lewis.. if you havent heard it... check it out here!

In her song the chorus just really hits me when she says

So what if it hurts me?

So what if I break down?

So what if this world just throws me off the edge

My feet run out of ground?

I Gotta find my place, I wanna hear my sound

Dont care about all the pain in front of me

I just wanna be happy

My mom called last night and told me a VERY sad story about a family with 3 little boys and thier baby died on Sunday after falling off a chair and hitting his head! That night BJ and I talked about how blessed we are!

Life hurts sometimes, I break down, I feel like the world throws me off the edge every now and then

BUT

I am blessed and I can CHOOSE to be

HAPPY

or

SAD

I CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY

Here are a few of my reasons for happiness TODAY:

The boys and I danced and danced around the kitchen during lunch time

GRAHAM gave me that million dollar smile when I was twirling around that made my heart jump

BJ called to say hi

I drank a DDP for lunch (my drug of choice Diet Dr Pepper)

BJ will be here for dinner YIPPY

Girls Night TONIGHT! I am looking forward to some quality girly time

And #1 I have a beautiful family who is messy and grouchy and imperfect but we are safe, happy (75% of the time which is a GOOD percentage) and we LOVE each other!

Christmas post.... its on its way, sort of! The camera came back to us for a few days during vacation but it died again and I think its gone for good! My parents are sending me the pics...HOPEFULLY.... this is BLOG pressure! MOM... DAD.... email me PLEEEEAAASE

Ups and Downs

I feel like I write some version of this post about once a month! But I am always coming back to this feeling....
That life is always up and down I feel like I am just riding this never ending roller coaster! One minute the kids are playing super Hero's and Jedi's and the next one is balling because he got stabbed in the eye with a light saber and they start beating one each other until I break it up and Spencer breaks out with a " you are such a mean mommy , I don't like you!" SO I either send them to time out, yell until I feel better or on the rare occasion where I stop to THINK about it I try to change the situation and calm them down! (THIS ALWAYS works, I just never think of in the moment...ahhhh)

This constant roller coaster has been making me unusually sick lately
until at church (GREAT I KNOW) I kinda snapped! Getting ready for church was rocky but as SOON as we got in the doors to church the boys BOLTED and started running until they RAN right into the chappel where they continued to run around.... I WAS MORTIFIED!

I need to just throw in there that this is NOT the first time they have been told not to run in church! We have had multiple FHE lessons on reverence....its just not sticking!

I got them to come out in the hall where I REMINDED them we dont run at church and Spencer started arguing with me about WHY he HAD to run! And at that point I had had it! AND THEN they took off again! BJ FINALLY found us and I was about to cry I told him I had to leave! We went home and talked and talked about this rollercoaster!

It was then that I realized I needed some help! Its been a long time since I really SAT DOWN AND STUDIED my scriptures or had a truly meaningful PERSONAL prayer! I wasn't taking any of my "medicine for the MOTION SICKNESS." I was just riding the roller coaster and complaining without going to the ONE THING that could really help me feel better!

I sat on my bed and read and read! I said a meaningful prayer and really TALKED to my Father and Friend and told them I wouldn't forget where the real lasting medicine comes from!

I have been feeling better.... A LOT BETTER! I am STILL on the roller coaster! I have 3 kids under 5 I think it WILL be a series of ups and downs for a long time! BUT I have rediscovered (yet again) where real peace comes from!

I dont mean to sound all preachy or corny this part of my journey and it really helps me to write it down and hopefully get feedback from friends about what works for them!
If any of you out there have some ideas to help with this motion sickness please share!!!

My Cleaning Dilemma

Keeping my house clean and finding the balance between NAZI clean and filthy dirty is so hard for me! I feel like I am either running around after the kids to pick up each toy and getting grouchy about it or in a defiant "I'm not cleaning cause it never stays clean anyway" kind of bad attitude!

It seems like it stems from the idea that if my house is clean I am a good mom and wife and doing my job and if its dirty then I am a terrible mom and need to be embarrassed

WHY

do we lie to ourselves and PUSH AND PUSH to keep up this image that houses are never used or played in and are ALWAYS picked up?

I AM TIRED OF BEING STRESSED AND EMBARRASSED

MY WORTH IS NOT DETERMINED BY HOW MESSY OR CLEAN MY HOUSE IS!

I am not going to give up and never clean but I am DONE feeling like it has to be picked up and 100% show room ready for visitors and family!

WE LIVE HERE, toys get played with food gets eaten, pillows get swung around, laundry gets cleaned (or not cleaned:), beds get slept in!

I AM STILL A GOOD MOM IF MY HOUSE ISN'T SPOTLESS!!!

I refuse to play into this perfect woman perfect house image! SO I PROMISE to NEVER come into your house and think, hmm she hasn't cleaned today! or hmm at least I vacuum before people come over! I PROMISE to come into your house and look at YOU and spend my energy being a friend and not comparing who vacuumed most recently or who wipes their counters most often!

WILL YOU DO THE SAME FOR ME?

My Moment of Clarity

The past few weeks have been rough on me! I have just felt a little down and out, and I dont know why!!? I have been so grumpy and edgy! I feel myself go from 1 to angry over small things and I wonder why? I have been feeling constantly overwhelmed and upset and it makes me sad!

I snap at the boys and scare myself! I can see how I react in their faces and then I just want to be different! I know I DONT want the be that kind of Mom! I want to respond quietly and sweetly I want to brush of the everyday messes and just be able to relax and play with them... but for some reason lately I cant!!! And my heart slows down and I just ache because I DONT WANT TO BE THIS GIRL!

Today was another bad day, the kids made too many messes and fought too much and at nap time they just screamed and beat on each other! The first time I went in I threatened them with no more juice and raised my voice!

As I sat down I remembered a blog Amber recommended I read for a little pick me up and this sweet girl I dont even know softened my heart and helped me hear what the spirit was trying to tell me!

At that moment the boys started crying and I could tell someone hurt someone else! I went in softly and asked Spencer to come sit next to me and Cooper (who was the victim THIS time) I told him I wanted to be a better mommy and told him I needed Heavenly Fathers help! So we said a prayer together!

Cooper wiggled and I cried and asked Heavenly Father to help me answer with tenderness instead of harshness to laugh and play instead of correct and scold! I asked for extra strength to think before I respond so we could be a happier family!

When I closed the prayer and opened my wet eyes I saw my two beautiful boys and felt such clarity and peace! I knew that if I just took some time to ask for the extra help I needed I COULD be more of the kind of MOM I want to be and my BEAUTIFUL boys DESERVE! I dont have to wonder how, I KNOW that I can get all the extra strength I need if I only turn to my Brother and ASK!

So in the moments of frustration that are SURE to come (before I even finish this post, I'm sure!!) I am going to try and just ask for help as I approach a intense situation! And hopefully my kinder attitude will rub off on them!! AND if not well I'll know where to turn....

So thank you to Amber and this sweet girl who opened her heart and testimony; you were the instruments in His hands to show me that He knows me and is ready to help me!!

Memories

This weekend I went to two different parades and at each one I had a very strong memory hit me that just stopped me in my tracks!

At the first parade there was a group of Vietnam Veterans who walked while holding flags all done up in their uniforms! All I could think about was my Grandpa King who was a Vietnam Veteran but died of lung cancer when I was a teenager! All I could see was him holding that flag waving at me and smiling! Oh how I wish he was there!

I have a select few memories of him. One of my favorites is visiting him in his small home in Corning California when I was little. I must have been under 10. I remember rocking back and forth in his lap while he relaxed in his very comfy and worn recliner! I remember the next morning waking up early to him cooking green pancakes. They tasted so good, i can remember feeling so happy talking and laughing with him while he flipped more and more of his famous green pancakes!

I remember all 3 of us kids going to the fire station where he worked. I remember being so impressed and amazed that MY grandpa was a fire fighter! I remember my excitement when he took us, just us, out for a ride in the fire truck! I felt so privileged to be there with him! And in such a shiny big fire truck of course!

I remember him visiting us in Minnesota when I was just barley a young women. He pulled up in his camper with his co-pilot puppy! I remember walking outside to the driveway and climbing into his little camper and just enjoying him being at our house!

My very most favorite thing about Grandpa was his cards! He NEVER EVER forgot me! Right on schedule 2 weeks before my birthday or any major holiday he would send me a card! It wasn't fancy or filled with money all that mattered to me was that HE REMEMBERED ME! After he died I am sad to say it didn't change my life much! I didn't even really notice a difference until my birthday came around and NO card arrived! I know he still remembers me now! His cards don't arrive in the mail anymore but he shows he remembers me by touching me at a busy parade! And saying I am still here, I still care about you and I HAVEN'T FORGOTTEN please don't forget me!

I WONT FORGET YOU GRANDPA! I LOVE YOU!

Moments with Graham

Today at nap time I put all 3 kids down and I thought I was going to get a little ME time! Graham laid down for about 10 minutes until he started SCREAMING! I let him cry for a few minutes and then I realized he wasn't going to fall asleep! I went in and picked him up, THAT moment he stopped crying and looked up at me and smiled! All I could think was what a silly baby!

We came in and laid down so he could eat a little more! After a few minutes he stopped and just stared at me! All the other things going on in my mind were silenced as I looked at those bright blue eyes and felt that unconditional love he had for me! His sincere heart warming smiles filled me up with gratitude! Then he started touching my face his innocent curiosity is so special! I love this stage of all he knows is that he LOVES his family and wants to explore his new world! But in those few minutes I KNEW there was NO WHERE else either of us wanted to be! I HOPE that I can love my family the way I felt loved by him, unconditionally truly happy to be with each other!!

I WAS JUST SO GLAD TO HAVE THESE FEW QUIET MOMENTS WITH MY SWEET LITTLE GRAHAMY!

I have always felt his calming and quiet spirit! He is so special, JUST what our family needed to be complete! Life is so SO busy and loud but these moments are what make me SO grateful and happy to be the mother of 3 strong sweet boys!

I LOVE YOU Graham, I cant imagine my life without YOU! You bring something so unique and important to my life and our family! I hope you always know that!

My Blessing in Nursery

I had a challenging but ultimately rewarding couple of Sundays! Cooper has been REALLY REALLY REALLY struggling going to Nursery! For the last 7 Sundays Cooper would start hysterically crying as we approached the nursery door! Our nursery leaders DON'T want us to leave Cooper if he is crying so I have been in class with him! Some Sundays with Graham too, because BJ has had to work or been teaching in Young Men! It has been challenging!

Last week BJ had to work so I took Graham and Cooper to nursery. It was a rough day for Cooper but as they went for snack time and the lesson I was able to sneak out! I WAS THRILLED! I went and sat down in Relief Society, just as I relaxed into the chair Graham started crying, he was hungry! I got up walked out the door and stood in the hall way for a second! The thought came to me, WHY AM I HERE? I haven't been to either class in weeks, Sacrament is spent trying to keep the kids quiet! I KNOW I couldn't tell you what was talked about. I haven't had one second since I got here to even think about The Savior! WHY AM I HERE? I went and sat down in the mothers lounge and fed Graham, still sad! He fell asleep a few times but as I stopped nursing he would cry! Finally I covered him up with his blanket, still nursing and went in and sat down in Relief Society! I looked up at the clock and there was less then 10 minutes left! My heart sank!! That night as I laid down I said a silent prayer about my frustration! I knew the right answer, keep going even if you sit in nursery and read books and negotiate with the kids during Sacrament! Keep going Heavenly Father will bless you, 10 minutes of class is enough to feel the spirit and learn a little! KEEP GOING!

Then this Sunday my own personal miracle! Spencer took Cooper to class, played a few minutes and left! COOPER WAS PERFECT! never cried never even noticed Spencer left! It seems so small and SO trivial but to me it was a HUGE blessing, something I COULDN'T have done on my own! I know Heavenly Father understands my simplest frustrations and is waiting to help if I will simply continue doing what is right and show Him I believe in Him and His Gospel!

So THANK YOU for listening to me and for ONCE AGAIN showing me that if I out forth the effort and Come Unto Thee you will always be there for me! This is my continuing testimony!

Time to Set Some Goals

I have been thinking lately that I want to set a few goal... 

As I started to think about what I want to work on about 100 things ran through my mind as things I could stand to improve upon! But I know if I set too many goals NONE of them will be achieved! SO I have decided on 3!! for now....

#1

Read my scriptures every day!!

I want to spend time after the kids are in bed and the house is picked up studying my scriptures I am sad and a little embarrassed to admit that I have fallen out of the habit and I feel a lack of spirituality in my day to day life!We have such a great habit set up with the kids each night I have just slacked off in my personal study time!! I know if I put in the effort the Lord will reward me with the spirit and a increased amount of peace! (which I could really use:)

So every night scriptures and hopefully one Conference talk each week!(I get WAY more out of reading them then listening to them!!!:)

#2 

Work out twice a week!

In my new ward there is a group that meets twice a week to exercise together! Seeing as 3 babies has done NOTHING for my waistline and unfortunately I haven't made time to do anything for my waistline either... I decided to start going!

And whew let me tell you it kicks my tush! It starts at 9:30 so I don't have wake up super early, YEA! All the kids run around and play together! Of course my boys like to weave in and out of all of us and throw things in between us while we exercise! OH silly kids! And as most people know I am THE most UNCOORDINATED person ON the PLANET! I am counting on the saying "practice makes perfect" cause when everyone else is kicking right I am kicking left! :)

Anyway it feels SO good to get out there and get my muscles working! Tuesdays and Thursdays are so good, I love getting out and burning some energy and so do the kids!!!

#3 

Get ready EVERY day!

I know this one sounds funny but if I don't have anywhere to go I usually stay in PJ's ALL day! Whenever I DO get ready Spencer always asks where we are going! ouch! So I think it will help me feel better and hopefully help me get more done each day! And I am sure BJ would like to see his wife in more then his old tee shirts and jammie pants:)

We will have to see about the necklace and cookies, right now I'll be doing good to have makeup and clothes on!!!

So so far so good! I think working on some things to improve ME a little will help ME in my relationships with others too! I'll keep my progress posted!!!